It's Sunday afternoon and I'm really supposed to be working. I still don't have internet at home, and using my phone as a tethering wifi hotspot, or something. I've been so busy with so many things - I've been working every night to get things going. All my little side projects, my book and my freelance work that needs to burn in open fire by 1 July. Telkom, ADSL, registrations, bank accounts, accountants, templates, logos, rate cards... You don't know. I feel so completely exhilarated and absolutely alive. I feel like I've just entered possibly the most rewarding and exciting phase of my life.
This is something else. Everything is unpredictable right now, nothing is normal - things could change in a second and I love that. I thrive in the unknown and unexpected, it's such a rush. I'm always trying to find a way to improve everything that I do and have. A better mother, a better wife, a neater and prettier home, a better business woman, more attractive, funnier, smarter. I read, I study, I take chances, I try find solutions and I fail - man alive do I fail. I've tried to start a business three times. I had two other blogs before Raising Men that didn't work, but I keep trying and I won't stop. Every rejection, every unanswered email and every mistake just drives me harder and faster in to the unknown. Like I'm galloping blindly in to an abyss of possibility and opportunity. I've been busy and I'm loving every single second and hanging on to every tiny achievement along the way. I'm passionate about people and communication, and I need that to translate in to every single thing that I do.
This weekend I forced myself to slow down a bit, we went to the Open Streets thingy here in Observatory. They closed off Lower Main rd to cars so that we could all ride our bicycles (not that I have one) and the kids could walk around freely, people were on skateboards... There were bands and lots of happy faces, it was very cool. Granny Annie came over and helped us tackle the garden a bit. I sorted out the lounge and set up a little temporary working space for myself. Right now the kids are with Granny. It's so cold, and I have so much to do. I can't get the fire going, I've got Eric Clapton on in the background and now... I need to get back to business. Boys this is such a big moment for mommy that you'll understand later and man alive I hope that everything works out. It has to, for you. Pictures!
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