What a bizarre day. I woke up at like 5am with Benjamin giggling. Right. Got up and realized that Graeme hadn't come home last night. Then Noah woke up at 5:15 and I gave both kids a bottle and kinda forced them back to sleep. Having two kids in bottles and nappies at once is not ideal. (Especially not at 5am)
I poured myself an awesome hot bath -bubbles and everything. I even removed and packed away every rubber duck and bath sticker that stood in my way. Got in, relaxed, and looked up at the ceiling. There was a big stick-like mantis insect thing doing his walk above my head. Of course I couldn't relax. I kept following this thing, trying to trust it like... don't fall buddy.. please don't fall on my face or anywhere in this bath because I will scream and freak out and just lose my shit. I don't do bugs. I don't.
Eventually I got so anxious I got out the bath and in to the shower, opening the door every ten seconds to check the mantis' current position. Hadn't moved.
Finally get out the shower and the thing was gone. I freaked out. You know when you kind-of jump and slap and hit yourself all over in case something is crawling on you? I ran out the bathroom screaming. Really. I freaked out and screamed like a little girl.
Later, somewhere along the line I fell asleep to "The Little Mermaid" (which I still cry in by the way... when King Triton gives Aerial her legs and says... 'I'm sure going to miss her'.) I still have a total crush on Eric. I mean come on, black hair and blue eyes and oh yes, he's a prince with a dog. Really? Well done Disney.
So I had a good panic attack, scream and a good cry today.
Man. I went to look at another place tonight. I was so pretty. Right area. Right price. It had a little bushy garden and picket fence. Lots of shelving, new kitchen, all of it.
But there are some things I just can't compromise on.
I don't do carpets. I especially don't do brown, blotchy, stained carpets. So annoyed.
The lovely estate agent person promised to find me a tiled unit. I think I said please in every sentence. I may even have pulled the "single mom" card and the saddest looking face I could manage.
Right now I have a bottle of wine and a rather large chocolate to keep me company.
I really wish I ate less when I'm stressed and depressed. I have lost track at the amount of things that I've pulled out of the refrigerator today.
Stupid bugs! Hate it when the ruin a perfectly good zen moment!!
ReplyDeleteWe have brown carpets just in the 3 rooms - I have ripped Kiaras up already. Waiting to stop working and then David may come home to find the other 2 rooms ripped up too!!
Yip the divorce process is simple if you can agree upfront!!!! Mine was worst case scenario so took years! But if you agree it can be done in 6 weeks!! Good luck!!! Mail me if you have questions - more than happy to help :)
LOL @ the mantis, that made me giggle. Good luck with sorting the lawyer stuff out, bleh.
ReplyDeleteI so agree with you on carpets! Hate hate hate them. Whenever I have to walk on them, and god forbid it is barefoot, I can't help but wonder what is stuck between those little fibres. Freaks me the hell out!
ReplyDeleteI hope you get a place real soon.
As for the DVD, my go-to-cry-movie is Term of Endearment. I will start crying at the opening titels and will be totally hoarse and spent by the time the credit roll on by. Love it!
Just started following you at possibly one of the harder moments of your life... And just read this and the last couple of posts.. You go girl. I love the attitude!!!! Knock them dead, and yes you are awesome!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad I stumbled across your blog. Your little "affair" with the mantis in the bathroom had me grinning because I can totally relate :)
ReplyDeleteI hope you find your perfect place soon!