I have been working hard again.
It has also given me a reason to keep shit together and actually get out of bed and brush my teeth in the morning. Hell I even shaved my legs.
I am finding strength and maturity in myself that I really didn't know I had. It's good. It feels like my little brain is connecting dots and making sense of my surroundings.
Not sure what the picture is yet though.
I keep thinking that all this crap is happening to me because I have lessons to learn in life etc. But now I am thinking "Enough. What could I possibly have left to learn? I think I've really covered everything??"
I know there is one more that I am tackling right now. Patience. I have none. I need to acquire some if I want to get through this. I am a bit of a brat, I admit. I still think I can stomp my feet and make things happen.
Apparently it does not work that way. Well... why the hell not?
HA! I remember having a very mature tantrum one night while living with my parents where I yelled that I KNOW ENOUGH! And dont want to learn more!
ReplyDeleteI beleive patience is a gene - you have it or you dont - finished! I dont have it and learnt to just embrace that :-p
I don't have patience either. Understand completely what you mean with the "stomp my feet" as I find myself doing that very often.
ReplyDeleteI'm also one of those that will start a fight, but when it does not go the way I want it too, I will just go "Oh forget it" and then just expect it to go back to the way it was before I initiated the whole thing. Drives my husband up the wall!
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ReplyDeleteCan I just say kudo's for shaving the legs :)
ReplyDeleteIt really does make a huge improvement!
Its a good thing that you are getting out of the house and back into a working routine, it will keep you busy enough to not stress constantly!