I had to go out for a meeting today and I couldn't find anything "meeting-like" to wear. I have a pile of all my old, skinny, pre-Benjamin clothes at the very bottom of my cupboard, where I can't see and be depressed by them every time I'm in there.
Anyway, today I was feeling a bit braver and pulled out an old pair of skinny legged jeans. My favorite pair. Probably the only "label" that I own.. my Polo Jeans.
I kept telling myself that they probably won't even fit over my thighs.. who am I kidding... as I slipped them over my thighs I froze I was actually so surprised. But I didn't want to set myself up for disappointment, so I told myself OK they went over the thighs, fine, -but there is no chance that these guys will go over my ass, AND actually zip shut. Well, they did. And it was amazing.
But I haven't tried any other old clothes on. I'm still too scared. It's a REALLY good feeling to fit in to your pre-baby clothes, even just one item. I was starting to think that my maternity clothes was my new wardrobe. Really. I'm glad.
And I finally booked my and Benjamin's checkups for next week. I'm excited. My doctor is going to give me the little hormone pills to stop my milk flowing, then the rest of me will go back to normal too. Benjamin will go on formula, and will sleep longer and maybe drop another feed. Mommy will get more sleep and be more cheerful. Noah will go to school and have less energy.
I think the worst is over.
Is it?