"I was getting the sinking feeling that Katut’s prophesy was coming true. Was I in the shorter marriage? We’d only bought this house a year ago. Hadn’t I wanted this? I had actively participated in every moment of the creation of this life. So why didn’t I see myself in any of it?
The only thing more impossible than staying, was leaving. I didn’t want to hurt anybody, I wanted to slip quietly out of the back door and not stop running until I reached Greenland.
Instead, I made a decision. To pray. You know, like… to God."